I am getting my classroom all set up now. Going to Staples this morning to buy this and that. It is very exciting and a little surreal. I cant believe I am finally here. To this place in my life where I am in charge of everyday. What the kids will learn each hour will be up to me. Its crazy to think about it.
But one thing is always in the back of my mind. Even though I have all these great things happening around me...he is still there. It is going on 5 months now and I still love him just as much as I did when we were together. I guess there are some people that come into your life that you will never forget...never let go of. He will be in my heart always and I know I am still in his.
I am jealous of her at times. She gets to be with him now. Go places with him...watch movies with him...eat dinner with him. But on the other hand I am not jealous of her. I wonder if he will do the same thing to her that he did to me. If she will give all she has to him just to be drained out empty. At the end will she be a shell of what she was? Or will she hold back?
I think about our first couple months together...that is where they are now. But is it the same? Has he told her, like he did me, how perfect she is for him...how he has never felt this way about someone this quickly...how he thinks she was built for him. I wonder.... Wonder if it is as passionate as we were.
Of course I hope its not. And I guess I'll never know.
About Me
- SonjaMichelle
- I am an easy going person, very outgoing, and I like to have fun! I am also very competitive, but in a good way I think! I'm in a new chapter in my life and it makes me think of this Hope Floats quote, "...that beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most. Try to remember that when you find yourself at a new beginning. Just give hope a chance to float up. And it will, too..." Hope has decided to Float up for me.
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