Yesterday...

Yesterday, September 13th, came and went just like a normal day...but to me it wasn't just a normal day.

I kept myself busy, very busy, by painting my house. The cabinets are now white and the living room walls are this brown color with an olive undertone. The kitchen walls will soon be that same color. I love it so far...but what I love even more is how it kept my mind off of what yesterday was to me.

2 years ago...It was 2 years ago yesterday when he and I first got together. It was our first evening hanging out. I remember we had evening band rehearsal that night and we were standing at the top of the press box watching the band and color guard. The run throughs were not going well and he turned to me and said "I'm going to need a cocktail...would you like to join me" or something like that. Earlier that week he had made comments to me that made me wonder if he was flirting with me so when he asked me that I got extremely nervous. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to join him but I was scared. By the end of practice I told him I would come along.

I remember telling the guard instructor who I was helping (and very good friends with as well) about what was going on and she asked me if I liked him. At that point I had no opinion about him other than that we shared a lot of the same vision about the show and band in general. So I did not know what to tell her. She told me I had to tell her everything the next day...and I planned on it!

He and I spent the entire weekend together after that Thursday night which lead to a couple months of us secretly dating. We broke up around Thanksgiving, but then got back together after my Pasadena trip with the Pride Band.

A year and a half together. Probably the best year and a half you could have with someone I had with him and yesterday I stopped to remember how it began. He was perfect in my eyes. My "McDreamy"....everything I had ever wanted.

Even with everything I know now...with everything that happened...I would not take back that first evening or any moment I had with him. I wonder if he thought about me yesterday, or if he has already forgotten. If so, I will remember for the both of us and keep him in my heart always.