The comments

I already know I am probably going to get A LOT of crap after this blog, because some of you will take it as me defending the man who has done so much damage to my heart. And I guess in some ways I am defending him...but mostly his comment.

I read his post after school yesterday and when I first read through the lines I found it odd. I did not automatically think it was him. It wasn't till about the 3rd time I looked at it that I thought it might be him. Even with the idea that it may be him writing this on my blog, I was not mad or upset.

Because I KNOW HIM! And I knew where he was coming from. I know if I was still with him I would probably be celebrating advent along with him. I remember last year not putting his tree up with him till a few days before Christmas, which was a very special moment, I thought, for us.

These last few months have been really hard. Meeting and talking to women who were in his past was almost unreal. I do feel though, in my deepest part of me, that I know him better than anyone (except his mother and sister). And maybe that is why letting go has been so hard and so hard for them to understand.

I am not holding on anymore. I am so past that. The past is the past and I have to keep looking forward. I choose to remember the great times I had with him and move on toward something else.

Ok, so the point of all this is....his comment did not upset me and where I LOVE that so many of you would jump to my defence...HE is the one area of my life that I really cant handle people "bashing". So thank you. Really, Thank You for defending my "right to listen to Christmas music" but I'm ok.

I really hope that some of you find a way to forgive him for whatever pain he may have caused you or someone close to you. Because forgiveness is the greatest way to heal. I have forgiven him and I sill think he is a great man. He is more brilliant that any of you know...He is the measuring stick (both good and bad) for every guy I date now...and He will always be in my heart.

Christmas will soon be here...but what is becoming my favorite holiday, the New Year, will be here soon too. What I love about New Year is that EVERYONE gets a second chance. Everyone deserves a second chance in life...sometimes even a third and forth chance. By letting him be the man I know he can be, and I know he wants to be, I find I am becoming a stronger woman. Letting go of the pain and starting over.

This is a wonderful time of year to forgive and start over....