Its been a while....

There was a time not so long ago that "good days" were hard to come by for me.

I mean on the outside looking in you might think everything was fine. I woke up every day and went to school, was energetic for my student, kept trying to make my house more homey, everyday things that made it seem like I was ok when I really wasn't doing "ok" at all on the inside.

But for a while now, things have been really good in my life. I feel so much better than I did this time last month.

I think I am starting to realize that all the plans and all the ideas of what my life was going to be like or what it should be like...isn't going to happen. And THAT'S ok! I still want things for my life, its just on a different time line then I had it before.

Right now I am in a job that I really love, working with a guard that is established yet still growing, and I have a nice house to come home to. I am busy and happy and that's all I need right now in my life.

Before I felt like I should be engaged by now (24) and have at least one kid before I was 30; but that is not what I want now. I'm not sure when the guy thing will happen for me but I'm not worried about it. When it happens it happens.

For so long I thought that finding a husband and having kids should be my top priority, was what would define me, and would be the only thing that could make me truly happy. For some that is their life's treasures and I feel that is beautiful. But for me that's not it. At least right now.

I'm happy where I am. Single. With a job. A house. Two beautiful little dogs. And a few friends close by.