I did something today! Something that is going to seem somewhat silly...but it is a big deal. A gesture that is unseen but a gesture that lifts a weight from my heart. A press of a button that is more freeing than one could imagine.
It is one more step, one more step away from what was and toward what is. A step away from a relationship that was not as it seemed and a step toward a relationship that is EVERYTHING I could ever ask for.
Today I went onto my Knot.com account and removed his name from the "Groom" section. Now when I get emails from The Knot it will not have his name along side of mine with pictures of wedding cakes and center pieces. I will not be reminded of what was going to be our perfect day.
One more way to NOT think of him.
I am finding more and more ways to remove him from my thoughts, though I know he will never be gone completely.
How could something so small make me feel so good?
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whooo hooo! Good job.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you didn't know just how much of a burden and weight this past relationship was, and even more the burden of the misery after. No one can live with that, and eventually your body mentally and physically and emotionally tells you to start letting go for your own health. :-) I'm happy for you!
ReplyDeleteI know that was a big deal. Good for you.
ReplyDeleteNow you should truely get on with your life and remove his name from registry.weddingchannel.com
ReplyDeleteWow! I didnt even know that was there!
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